Sunday, April 10, 2011

selawat atas baginda

Di sudut pasar Madinah ada seorang pengemis Yahudi buta yang setiap harinya selalu berkata kepada setiap orang yang mendekatinya, "Wahai saudaraku, jangan dekati Muhammad, dia itu orang gila, dia itu pembohong, dia itu tukang sihir, apabila kalian mendekatinya maka kalian akan dipengaruhinya."

Namun, setiap pagi Muhammad Rasulullah SAW. mendatanginya dengan membawakan makanan, dan tanpa berucap sepatah kata pun, Rasulullah SAW. menyuapkan makanan kepada pengemis itu sedangkan pengemis itu tidak mengetahui bahawa yang menyuapinya itu adalah Rasulullah SAW.. Rasulullah SAW. melakukan hal ini setiap hari sampai baginda wafat.

Setelah wafatnya Rasulullah SAW., tidak ada lagi orang yang membawakan makanan setiap pagi kepada pengemis Yahudi buta itu. Suatu hari sahabat terdekat Rasulullah SAW. yakni Abu Bakar RA. berkunjung ke rumah anaknya, Aisyah RA. yang tidak lain tidak bukan merupakan isteri Rasulullah SAW. dan beliau bertanya kepada anaknya itu, "Anakku, adakah kebiasaan kekasihku yang belum aku kerjakan?"

Aisyah RA. menjawab, "Wahai ayah, engkau adalah seorang ahli sunnah dan hampir tidak ada satu kebiasaannya pun yang belum ayah lakukan kecuali satu saja."

"Apakah Itu?" tanya Abu Bakar RA..

"Setiap pagi Rasulullah SAW. selalu pergi ke hujung pasar dengan membawakan makanan untuk seorang pengemis Yahudi buta yang ada di sana," kata Aisyah RA..

Keesokan harinya Abu Bakar RA. pergi ke pasar dengan membawa makanan untuk diberikan kepada pengemis itu. Abu Bakar RA. mendatangi pengemis itu lalu memberikan makanan itu kepadanya. Ketika Abu Bakar RA. mulai menyuapinya, si pengemis marah sambil menghardik, "Siapakah kamu?"

Abu Bakar RA. menjawab, "Aku orang yang biasa (mendatangi engkau)."

"Bukan! Engkau bukan orang yang biasa mendatangiku," bantah si pengemis buta itu.

"Apabila ia datang kepadaku tidak susah tangan ini memegang dan tidak susah mulut ini mengunyah. Orang yang biasa mendatangiku itu selalu menyuapiku, tapi terlebih dahulu dihaluskannya makanan tersebut, setelah itu ia berikan padaku," pengemis itu melanjutkan perkataannya.

Abu Bakar RA. tidak dapat menahan air matanya, dia menangis sambil berkata kepada pengemis itu, "Aku memang bukan orang yang biasa datang padamu. Aku adalah salah seorang dari sahabatnya, orang yang mulia itu telah tiada. Ia adalah Muhammad Rasulullah SAW.."

Seketika itu juga pengemis itu pun menangis mendengar penjelasan Abu Bakar RA., dan kemudian berkata, "Benarkah demikian? Selama ini aku selalu menghinanya, memfitnahnya, dia tidak pernah memarahiku sedikitpun, dia mendatangiku dengan membawa makanan setiap pagi, dia begitu mulia...."

Pengemis Yahudi buta tersebut akhirnya bersyahadat di hadapan Abu Bakar RA. saat itu juga dan sejak hari itu dia menjadi Muslim.

Ya Rasulullah saw., rindu pada mu, andai baginda ada bersama ketika ini T.T

Saturday, April 9, 2011

by the first step..

akhir2 ni, makin kurang dpt lenakan mata ni di awal waktu. mgkn kerana mengenangkn masa2 akhir sbg sorg pelajar undergrad. Ya Allah, murahkanlah rezki ku. murahkan lah rezki sahabat2 ku.

byk perkara yg dtg menerpa ruang fikiran. harus ke manakah kaki ini terus melangkah. ya Allah. usai interview pertama ku dlm usaha membina kerjaya.

Alhamdulillah, fair. didnt prepare a lot, im not really interested act, only bcoz the company has the branch at ganu, i step forward. but, after hving good time with them, alhamdulillah, feeling warmly apprecited n feeling like wanna be a part of them. oh Allah, guide me.

n rite now, really want to describe much about how i see the world in a day journey. heh. as i dont hv much time to grab this chance again.

grateful.

totally feeling grateful with all i hv. myself as a malaysian, student, daughter to ma n abah, n a friend to good friends, etc.. so many things i must thank to Allah. yes, definitely, Allah has grant me a good life. from then till now, always hv lunch, dinner..food, without a need to struggle. Allah always ease my way, i hv 'tool' to make me move. i own good physical and mental health, enable me to live good to this far.

realize now!

compare to a non-malaysian man who dont hv money to buy bus ticket to go to kl, n he quietly sit in a seat, until the real owner of the seat show up, and asked for his right. owh, if i at his place, how embraced i am?

compare to a family who has a house, in front part, rented for a kingdergarten, side part, a footstep far from the next house, a house with not appropriate 'aliran sisa kumbahan', need to be grateful enough for me to have such a big house. oh Allah.

compare to a pakcik bas who strive for his earn to keep the family's life up, who need to travel over distance just to send us to the destination, need to left his wife, children, in every travel, sometimes didnt deserve the respect from the other. oh Allah, bless him.

compare to other mother, with 2 children, who got their rest in the musolla at the terminal, with the little kids that is laughing and smiling without knowing the meaning of life, and a sister with the observing eyes, im not the selected person to be one of them. oh Allah, so so much i must be grateful enough.

2nd. sincere.

yes, sincere! an easy word, yet really hard for me. Allah teach me how the ikhlas really meant. He tests me, how much could i be patient with this thing that i really hope for.

deep..really deep. i put at a safe place. my hope. n i believe his hope too. tawakkal tu 'alallah. my life for Allah, n my greatest love is for Him and His lover, Muhammad saw. still it remains hope till now, pray, pray and pray the best for us.

along my way, i bring the spirit together, sometimes i can see the future, sometimes i cant. but, only my believe to Allah keep me up to this far. neither anything or nothing is done without His will, n my promise, i kept as a sign of my believe! n i still wait, for the promise to be strength enough. oh Allah, may U grant us patience and steps to make it! doa. i put it all out. every single thing i ask to Allah n i hope for him so.

(ok, dah. lega skt rase. setelah bsusah payah coretkn kata2 dlm manglish ni.)

Allah, hanya Engkau Maha Mengetahui. hanya diriku hambaMu yg sentiasa perlu kepadaMu.Allah, cintaMu terlalu agung, ku mohon cintaMu dn cinta RasulMu. jadikanku pemburu cinta agung itu ya Allah, hingga ke akhirnya..Allah.

Allah dn Rasulnya lebih dicintai drpd selain drpd keduanya;
Mencintai seseorang dn dia tidak mencintainya kecuali kerana Allah;
Benci utk kembali kpd kekufuran selepas Allah menyelamatkan drpdnya spt bencinya dicampakkan ke dlm api neraka.

manisnya iman..Allah, ku ingin merasainya. sentiasa!

Wednesday, March 30, 2011

debaran tak terhingga

salam final exam..
Allah, permudahkanlah urusan kami ya Allah.

Don’t feel ashamed when giving little for charity; that is because there is always goodness in giving no matter how little.

Ali Ibn Abi-Talib

Translated by: Amany Elmorshidy

Wednesday, March 23, 2011

si puteri


the sleeping beauty..:)

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim..

Ingin bercerita tika ini..setelah dua minggu berlalu.

Kehadiran insan yg dinanti2 kan

Allah, berkatilah keluarga kakakku ya Allah.rahmatilah mereka, lindungilah mereka dlm naunganMu ya Allah.

Allah.masakan aku dpt melupakan saat2 bersejarah, kehadiran si puteri kecil dalam keluarga kami.

Huhu, already stuck!So much words to say, but, the signal of assignment and thesis comes..always be a barrier for me, not in mood to update this blog though I want..huhu

Simply said, I feel blessed, feel happy, feel enthusiastic! Hehe

it is very special to have the sleeping beauty..

oh Allah, guide us to the right path, and bless us, ameen.

22 march 2011/ imc iium kuantan.

hm, still the internet connection is not good enough to update this blog..may Allah makes things easier for me..ameen.

Monday, February 28, 2011

kala ini..

Tuhan..
sungguh Engkau Maha bijaksana..
percaturanMu terlalu agung..

Engkau memberiku pelbagai nikmat, pelbagai kemudahan,
namun, sedikit sekali aku bersyukur..
ya Allah..

Dalam kehidupan yg fana ini..
Engkau hadirkan padaku berbagai cabaran..
agar aku mengerti hakikat hidup ini adalah untukMu..
Allah, kuatkanlah hambaMu ini..

Kalau hendak dipuaskan hati semua manusia..
nescaya tidak akan kesampaian..
Kalau hendak disampaikan semua kepada manusia..
nescaya tidakkan berkesudahan..

Lalu, dengan asmaMu yg Maha Agung..

Ya Sami'..Ya Basir..Ya 'Alim..
sentiasa Engkau ada disisiku setiap ketika..
sedia mendengar dan menganugerahkan rahmatMu padaku..

Allah..
terima kasih atas kehidupan ini..
Engkau memberikan ku peluang merasakan diriku dalam kasih sayang Mu..
Ya Tuhanku..

Rabbana aatina fiddunya hasanah, wa fil aakhirati hasanah, ameen..

dalam kekusutan hati menghadapi journal research yg menimbun..
Ya Allah, permudahkan urusan kami, ameen..




28 Feb 2011, imc,kuantan.

Sunday, February 20, 2011

...

hopefully, everything will be ok..
ya Rabb, give me strength, easiness, and Your mercy,
ameen.


Tuesday, February 15, 2011

i do believe, the time will be.

though the debate is over, me myself, keep thinking abt the event,
it's very harsh, and no sense of teamwork..

"hussy n bussy" huh, that word!
at the time, i just smile n thinking, what do i need to reply for that kind of poi,
the words seems so rude to me, but, i know, i just smile,
just wanna forgive n forget,
but till now, i know, i really mind the word..
i think again from the root, right from the beginning,
during discussion with them before the real debate occur yesterday.
huh,
i just really dislike to discuss with them, but my sense of humanity and friendship, do guide me to tolerate with their plan and attitude,
and i noe, since post discussion, i feel terrible with myself, i just dislike when a person dare to take over what am i thinking, and my collegue's opinion..
oh it is very unacceptable for me not to deliver my opinion, and just accept everything in the 'intellectual discourse' i hv,
though i know she is well-inform person,
though, i still know that nobody is perfect.
at the time, i, myself, accept the opinion, and i myself not even satisfied with the point,
i do carry my own believe day after day, and try find out myself, what really suit to be my argument.
ah, they didn't noe that n even may simply conclude...

and, it is really hard to deny that myself really hurt, cannot simply forgive them, and really myself do need time to accept what had happen yesterday,
but, i know, deep inside, they are my friends, and we are learned. and i still hv my forgiveness there.
but, the thing is, me myself, do wonder, do i really a very 'kind-hearted' person, just accept whatever others said and just forgive? without doing nothing to counter back and speak out the truth?
ah, it's not kind-hearted, it is a loser!
cannot even stand firmly to state my stand, huhu
what do i need to do?to face other people like yesterday? is it too harsh? and is it very weak part of me for not able to defense myself? huh,
what my lecturers said is true enough.
"we want to prepare all of u, for working environment, able to stand by ur own, able to justify whatever thing you do, and be autonomous for urself.
huhu..
oh Allah, please help me. guide me Ya 'Alim..
may me myself can be an outstanding person one day, insyaAllah.
not to feel weak, but CHALLENGE urself!

155. And certainly, We shall test you with something of fear, hunger, loss of wealth, lives and fruits, but give glad tidings to As-Sabirin (the patient).

156. Who, when afflicted with calamity, say: "Truly, to Allah we belong and truly, to Him we shall return.''

157. They are those on whom are the Salawat (i.e., who are blessed and will be forgiven) from their Lord, and (they are those who) receive His mercy, and it is they who are the guided ones.

(Al Baqarah: 155-157)

He always know..and Al Quran always be a 'miracle' to me :)

at this far, i really respect for the one, who can always speak for the truth..

cause i can't do it always T.T