though the debate is over, me myself, keep thinking abt the event,
it's very harsh, and no sense of teamwork..
"hussy n bussy" huh, that word!
at the time, i just smile n thinking, what do i need to reply for that kind of poi,
the words seems so rude to me, but, i know, i just smile,
just wanna forgive n forget,
but till now, i know, i really mind the word..
i think again from the root, right from the beginning,
during discussion with them before the real debate occur yesterday.
huh,
i just really dislike to discuss with them, but my sense of humanity and friendship, do guide me to tolerate with their plan and attitude,
and i noe, since post discussion, i feel terrible with myself, i just dislike when a person dare to take over what am i thinking, and my collegue's opinion..
oh it is very unacceptable for me not to deliver my opinion, and just accept everything in the 'intellectual discourse' i hv,
though i know she is well-inform person,
though, i still know that nobody is perfect.
at the time, i, myself, accept the opinion, and i myself not even satisfied with the point,
i do carry my own believe day after day, and try find out myself, what really suit to be my argument.
ah, they didn't noe that n even may simply conclude...
and, it is really hard to deny that myself really hurt, cannot simply forgive them, and really myself do need time to accept what had happen yesterday,
but, i know, deep inside, they are my friends, and we are learned. and i still hv my forgiveness there.
but, the thing is, me myself, do wonder, do i really a very 'kind-hearted' person, just accept whatever others said and just forgive? without doing nothing to counter back and speak out the truth?
ah, it's not kind-hearted, it is a loser!
cannot even stand firmly to state my stand, huhu
what do i need to do?to face other people like yesterday? is it too harsh? and is it very weak part of me for not able to defense myself? huh,
what my lecturers said is true enough.
"we want to prepare all of u, for working environment, able to stand by ur own, able to justify whatever thing you do, and be autonomous for urself.
huhu..
oh Allah, please help me. guide me Ya 'Alim..
may me myself can be an outstanding person one day, insyaAllah.
not to feel weak, but CHALLENGE urself!
155. And certainly, We shall test you with something of fear, hunger, loss of wealth, lives and fruits, but give glad tidings to As-Sabirin (the patient).
156. Who, when afflicted with calamity, say: "Truly, to Allah we belong and truly, to Him we shall return.''
157. They are those on whom are the Salawat (i.e., who are blessed and will be forgiven) from their Lord, and (they are those who) receive His mercy, and it is they who are the guided ones.
(Al Baqarah: 155-157)
He always know..and Al Quran always be a 'miracle' to me :)
at this far, i really respect for the one, who can always speak for the truth..
cause i can't do it always T.T
